Category: Stella

  • August 10, 2011: It Hurts

    I know it’s the chemo and not the cancer, but it is so painful to see Stella suffering. This cycle has been really bad so far. I sit holding her hand and just wish there was something else I could do for her. Sorry, but this is not going to be one of those upbeat…

  • August 8, 2011: Fighting Cancer

    On Sunday, I had a work meeting downtown. After the meeting, I got on the bus to go home. It was hot and a whole crowd of people were pushing to get on, knowing that most would not get a seat. An older woman avoided the crowd by getting on the bus from the side…

  • August 4, 2011: Home Cooking

    It’s Thursday afternoon, and I can smell chicken cooking in the oven. Stella is feeling great, the kids are home, and she is making everyone’s favorite dishes for Shabbat. When people cook for you and bring over prepared food, it’s very nice. We really can’t thank everyone enough who has helped out. But it’s been…

  • July 29, 2011: Give Me a Week

    The whole “day by day” attitude that I have had just isn’t working for me. Days are simply too short and they end too quickly. Focusing on each day means that nights are rotten. I simply can’t sleep and find myself pacing around at all sorts or weird hours. Even the dog is telling me to calm…

  • July 25, 2011: Roller Coaster

    I feel we are on a roller coaster. Sometimes Stella feels fine one hour and the next she can barely get up. I hated Shabbat. (Am I allowed to say that?) No offense to the people who brought over all the great food. We really appreciate it. But even if the Iron Chef himself schlepped…

  • July 21, 2011: I don’t know what to say

    I was speaking to a friend the other day and he mentioned that a number of people had not been in touch. They care very deeply about our situation, but they are afraid to approach me because “they don’t know what to say.” I got news for you my friends. I don’t know what to…

  • July 18, 2011: Chemo Part I

    As soon as we get home today, I know that we will get a million phone calls asking how chemo went. So I figured I might as well explain. The fact that I am writing at 2:30 in the afternoon rather than at 2:30 in the morning might also be a good thing. Here’s how…

  • July 15, 2011: 2:15 AM

    I didn’t write a post today. It’s not that I didn’t have something to say. There were a few things I was thinking of. I could have written about going to the “chemo orientation” which is a bit like orientation to a summer camp. Except that there was no mention of horseback riding or canoeing. Instead,…

  • July 14, 2011: Shabbat Shalom

    Perhaps the most striking thing about the lives of Orthodox Jews  is the weekly Shabbat — Sabbath. A complicated set of rules and traditions governs every aspect of our lives from the time the sun sets on Friday evening until the appearance of stars on Saturday night. While it may look like a period of…

  • July 8, 2011: Diagnosis

    To all of our friends, in America, Israel, and all over the world, We have been overwhelmed by the love that we have felt from all over. The davening (praying), people making meals, and everyone asking what they can do to help. Words cannot express our gratitude for the support that we have received. We…